delicious ambiguity's blog

I ate a bunch of raisins while I was talking to Susannah and i feel like I'm going to barf. blegh- I'm really not feeling like going to the gym.... might call sean and see what he's doing instead.

Supper 11/29 & morning 11/30

For dinner last night had a smidge of spaghetti, and a bowl of broccoli and cauliflower with a little cheese sauce. I ate a half a Reeces tree afterward, but not all the chocolate that came on it. Today I've had a ton of coffee, banana, lunch was blueberries with a little go-lean crunch and a yogurt. I also had a clementine- yum. This afternoon I have eaten another banana & am going to Karla's step class and I'm going to try to get there early to do some weights.

I don't feel hungry necessarily, I'm tired and don't really feel like going to the gym.  But I know I'll regret it if I don't go.  And Karla's teaching, so it will be good.  And help work off the DOUBLE helping of serious mac-n-cheese that I had on Thanksgiving at Carolyn's.  Yowza.

A. Riley providing a little thinspiration this morning at the awards ceremony- she's so beautiful.

Two Questions?

Woke up either feeling sick to my stomach or hungry- I can't tell anymore. I have completely lost touch with my body. I do have a headache. Coffee is brewing. Today we are having lunch at the Fowler's and I'm am sure it will be delicious, but fat laden and horribly calorie filled. Not a great start for my new start.I have to get back to a place of does it taste good and am I hungry?  I made chocolate chip cookies for Sean last night and I ate three of them -at least- and I didn't even like them, way too much chocolate, they were not good.  And yet, I ate another, and another.

1.Does it taste good?  2.Am I hungry?

My Monday workout goal- 6am weights and cardio & 5:45- Karla Step & Core

Thanksgiving Weekend-

Have eaten way too much- miss typing something other than National Board papers- am going to try to keep a food and exercise journal here.  We'll see if that helps to curb my constant munching that has become a habit as of late.  I am steadily more and more unsatisfied with The Lady, but I have got to keep moving through the winter and get through to the other side where warm weather will keep me outside and back to running.  I don't know what I'll do, but I've got to figure it out one week at a time I guess.  National boards is taking up more and more snack time, I have a tendency to want to eat while I work, I have to break myself of that- I need to remind myself truly that I don't feel good afterward.  I have had a pretty constant headache the last week or two, I think as a direct result of the holiday garbage that I've been eating.  I need to keep that in the forefront of my mind.  In addition, it's easy to just sit and snack on pita chips, but then the minute I stop, I want to ralph.  I HAVE to stop doing that.  Meanwhile I stay super thirsty- I am convinced that I am seriously dehydrated a good chunck of the time.  I have to go to the gym whether I feel like it or not, I feel like a fat slob when I don't.  I'm tired and cranky, but I know that part of the reason I feel those ways is that I'm skipping the gym.